1 Ramadhan...again :)

1 Ramadhan datang lg...

Malam pertama tarawikh untuk tahun ini...

Rasa nak nangis...T_T

Homesick melanda setelah melihat kanak-kanak lelaki berlari2 disekitar masjid dgn kain pelikat sarung kt bahu jer...*truk btol..dtg nk maen lari2 jer..:P Teringat zaman kecik2 dlu, we are the same...kalo x membesar dgn merasa suasana itu, sgt lah rugi, means pendedahan untuk tarawikh masa kecil tidak ada...walaupun nampak simple and skali skala rs nk lempang jer kanak2 yg maen2 lari sana sini, duk tunjal pale adik@abg die yg tgh semayang kt sebelah..setidak nya bila da besar sikit, dia akan paham hakikat perjuangan yg mak,ayah, adik beradik dan org2 sekeliling die yg tgh solat khusyuk walaupun die da sehabis tenaga ganggu org2 nie...:') budak kecik cpt belajar...semoga da ada anak nnt, akn ada kesempatan bwk dia pegi solat jemaah kt masjid sama2...ameeen :)

How to Improve your conversations? 25 Ways :)

Never wrote for a very long time. Too much busy with all these studying stuff *sigh...do i study a lot? for sure...nope! hahah..going thru this community clinical rotation make me learn a lot of thing, even i need to face another 5 wix more...T_T When it comes to having a conversation (more to start a conversation) especially with new people or our lovely patient, lot of people like kinda having a problem...some choose to stay quite, some keep asking only, some prefer mumbling, and some talks tooooo much like 'hey i cant stop my sound system from making sound' teheehee...:) Now let us read together2 about 25 ways to improve our conversation!

1. Be the first to say hello :) - jangan malu atau segan2 nk ckp hello ke, hye ke, assalamualaikum...org akan merasa dihargai sgt when ada org approach dorg dlu...cm rasa pride tinggi lah..."eh..org ni tegur aku dlu..ahaks" :p
2. Make an extra effort to remember people's name, and ask a person's name if you have forgotten it - tanye dlu org2 sekeliling sape name org yg kite nk kenal tue...if we say his/her name, for sure dia akan terkejut n mcm "wah...glemer ke aku smpai die tahu nama aku" (walhal br sesaat yg lalu i tahu nama u ok)
3. Be receptive to new ideas and be open to other people's opinions and feelings - when people telling u sumthing, make a comel face mcm sgt masuk ke celah2 hati apa yg dorg ckp tue, mcm pay a full attention kt ape die cte, org tu akan rs berkobau2 nk cte lg..hahaha
4. Show curiosity and interest in others and get enthusiastic about their interests - buat muka cam "owwwhhh!!!! ye ker!!! xtahu pn b4 nie cmtu" Okay, sedikit menipu ekspresi evn kite sebenarnya da tahu berzaman b4 that, tp xpe...do try, its works a lot!
5. Tell others about yourself, what you likes are and the important event in your life - kalau kite cte ttg life kite to others, org akan rs yg kite cm da percaya kt dorg so dat kite berkungsi dgn mereka ttg life kite..selain menarik minat mereka, sekalian kite boleh meluahkan segala kemarahan n stress juga, biaq dorg jd tukang dgr..hahaha
6. Keep abreast of current event and the issues that affect all out lives - apabila org yg kite nk bersembang tu sgt lah berminat kt topik2 dunia social, setidak nya ada lah ilmu skit..xd ar nmpk bodo ngat...plg tidak, if tahu event, selebihnya goreng pendapat sendiri..:p
7. Use "I" when you talk and don't use the word "you" when you really mean "I" - contohnya kalo nk p toilet better ckp "I nk g toilet jap yer" better dari "erm...you nk g toilet x?" nmpk kite cm erk...x confident ngn diri sendiri...
8. Show others that you are a good listener by restarting their comment in another manner -cbe ulang blk ape yg org tu pernah ckp kt kite, mcm "ooo..sama cm yg ko cte dlu yg psl bla2" dlm hati org tu msti berbunga2..."die ingt aku cite kt die dlu" tsk3~ kesat air mata..
9. Show your sense of humor when talking to others - yg nie hrs diasah lah, tgk lingkungan setempat, lawak tipe ape yg korg leh buat...kenal pasti apa yg dorg ske, how they talk, their perception n mix n match lah ngn kebolehan melawak korg :D
10. Balance the giving and receiving of information - haa...ni ssh ble u r too talkative n satu lg pendiam or vice versa, sila ad give n take, agk2 da mcm xreti nk stop ckp da sejam, bg ar can org tu cte gak sblm x pasal2 dapat makan penampo die..ok!
11. Show others that you are enjoying your conversations with them - senyum jer sepjg dorg crite, seperti anda sgt2 cm nk dgr dorg cte lg 7 jam..evn korg sbnrnye nk muntah, tp klo nk nguap..tgk posisi yer, jgn ar nganga dpn2, kecik ati org tue...haha
12. Ask other people about their opinions - listening to others opinion bukan shj mbuka minda kita sbb kite dgr sumthnk new dr apa yg kita selalu pk kn selain itu mbuat org tu bangga juga sbb kite need their opinions utk buat keputusan..evn kdg2 korg xperlu pn, sje2 jer nk testing, ngeeee...
13. Look for the positive in those you meet - evn org tu sgt lah jahat ke menjengkelkan ke, there must be positive side die, important thng is u learn not to be like that..sng kn utk positif? hehe
14. Start and end your conversation with a person's name and handshake or warm greeting - Utk yg muhrim shj yah...selain utk menguatkan memori akan mengingat nama org itu, kite menunjukkan bhw kite sbrnye xnk pisah ngn die n sgt jmpe lg pasni..gitu kunun2 nye...
15. Take time to be cordial with your neighbors and co workers - know before u love..hrs pndai melihat situasi lingkungan, observe dlu for a couple of time, then br lah amik action hrs baik ngn sape, hrs jauhi sape, org ni suke apa, org ni xsuke apa...u need a lot of information bout them ok~ :D
16. Let others know that you want to get to know them better - tanye lah yg simple2 adik beradik berapa, mak ayah keje apa, u suke mkn apa...dlu blajar kt mne, disamping itu leh ar kite share ttg diri kite juga..biaq die xnk dgr pn..nk bgtahu jugak! haha
17. Ask others about things they have told you in previous conversation - taktik ni leh wat klo org tu merajuk ke marah ke, tp bkn utk sume org yer, tnye lah.."ehs, ritu ko ckp mkn tmpt ape ek yg sdap sgt, yg ko pakai bj cantik n ad lelaki hensem ngorat ko tue...ingt x??? teringin nk g situ lah..." smbil kelip2 mata..msti die cm xmarah da...hahaha
18. Listen carefully for free information - haa..ctnye die tercakap smlm die beli baju murah sale kt kedai bla2..n ad kedai mkn wat promo buy 1 meal get another 3 meal ke..kite xnk terlepas peluang2 seperti ini yer kawan2...
19. be tolerant of other people's belief if they differ from yours - apabila pegangan dorg xsama ngn korg, n org nya ssh di argue, diam kn jer lah, xyah gado2..if org nye cm easy to receive new info, bwk2 lah berkungsi yer..
20. Change the topic of conversation when it has run its course - agk2 da nyimpang skit, kembali lah ke pangkal jalan sebelum terjadi sesuatu yg x diingini..hehe
21. Always search for another person's "hot-button" - Kenalpasti kekuatan dan kelemahan seseorang, esp buat korg yg nk p interview ke exam oral ke...nk ngorat ke..nk p bg ceramah ke...mende ni sgt important tau~
22. Compliment others about what they are wearing, doing, or saying - ni taktik lama tp smpai skrg sgt berjaya, puji ler melambung2 org tu pnye baju ke, kulit licin ke, kasut ke..evn korg da nk muntah hijau sbb xsggup nk puji...just go for it! hahaha, *walaupun x ikhlas..sbb sume org pn kdg2 hati kata lain, mulut kata lain :p
23. Encourage others to talk by sending out receptivity signals - buat muka siyes ke, mata booolat ke, angkat kening cm terkejut ke, tu signal2 penerimaan kite kt org..so, dorg pn rs cm org ni msti nk dgr ape dorg ckp kn....
24. Make an effort to see and talk to people you enjoy - cr lah org yg korg rs korg akn suit utk bersembang n hvg conversation, if x, korg menjebak diri korg dlm sangkar bersama2 org yg korg cm arghh...let me out of here..kite pn xmau ini terjadi kn..:D
25. When you tell a story, present the main point first and then add the supporting details afterward - yuppy, ni common lah, kite msti ckp tajuk dlu br cte isi...org xkn nk dgr kite bebel2 without knowing u nk cte pasal ape act...penting sgt ke??? haa...gitu yer :)

oke lah....da nk muntah type...happy talking! :)

Cupcakes Umpy Umpy Umpy~

eskrem paddle pop wannabe kah?

Nyum2....1st tyme nk merasa cuppy, before ni nk beli berkira lah jugak sebab mahal lah, tak puas untuk dinyum2...yang ni cam dapat makan banyak tapi sebab ramai lah pulak yang ada kat umah minggu nie, so kna berbagi-bagi rejeki lah. Tengok kat youtube baru tahu senang jer nak wat mende nie, bapaklah duk kagum ngan orang-orang yang buat mende ni sendiri. Bawah nie ada resepi untuk orang sedikit rajin tapi malas2 gak tapi nak jimat tak mahu beli cupcake diluar~ Selamat2 trying!

Rainbow Cupcakes

Bahan-bahan cupcake:

*Tepung kek span instant perisa vanilla

*5-6 biji telur ayam saiz grade A <--ape2 grade pon boley~

*Marjerin 150gram (dicairkan and dibiarkan sejuk pastu)

*Pewarna (biru, merah, kuning sahaja)

*mangkuk, periuk belanga, sudu, pemukul telur, kertas cupcake, pan nk letak cupcake etc

1. Beli lah tepung kek span perasa vanilla.

-Pilih lah yang bese2 jer, biasanya sedap jer, u can get it from supermarket ke kt kedai jual bahan-bahan nak buat cake tue.

2. Ikut instruction belakang cake tue.

- Bese dia akan suh tambah telur and margerin pastu pukul pakai mixer. Telur tu kalu die suh 6 biji tapi angpa nak jimat guna 4-5 bijik juga masih boleh, rasa masih sama.[nie kata my taste budd] Act, kalu tiada mixer, boleh jer nak kacau pakai pemukul telur yang berlingkar2 tue ha, pukui sampai jadi gebu warna putih. dan jangan lupa taste it! kalau da manis cam korang suka, ya sudahlah..if not, tambah lah sikit gula :)

3. Akhirnya, dapat lah a bowl of campuran mende2 td

- In diz part, korg amik lah gelas ke mangkok ke yang saiz sedang-sedang jer, then dividekn adunan tadi kepada berapa warna yang korang mahu. Me buat 6 colour, da bajet nak jadi paddle pop da nie! hehe..After da berjaya divide tue, baru lah gunakan skill Pendidikan Seni masa sekolah yang angpa belajar dlu...Colour Mixing...all u need is just 3 colour (biru, merah, kuning). Kalu nk purple = biru + merah, oren = merah + kuning, hijau = biru +kuning..cmtu2 lah korg mix n match kn yer, die akan jadi sangat cantik!

4. So,katakan skang u have 6 mangkok adunan dengan different2 colour right.

- Susun kertas cuppy tu dalam talam ade bulat2 bentuk acuan cuppy tue, jangan lupa sapu sisa2 marjerin td supaya depa tak melekat erat sesangat, senang nak tanggai nanti. Taruh ar adunan tadi satu2 kat setiap mangkuk, warna yang angpa nak selang seli tue kut suka2 angpa lah. taruh 1/3 @ 1/2 mangkuk cuppy jer sebab nanti die akan menngemok kan diri die!

5. Bakar atau kukus?

- Haaa...ramai act yang takde pembakar/microwave/oven etc apatah lagi student cam ai nie ha. So, the best alternative is kukus lah! mana-mana pun bisa kan. Mudah, xde risiko hangus, jimat letrik, moist lg <--me prefer kukus dari bakar. Kukus lah cuppy angpa tue sampai 15-20 minit. Cucuk lah ngan garfu, kalu ms tarik tu garfu angpa cantik cm br pas basuh, licin jer, oke, da masak! tutup api kukus tue..bawak kek angpa turun.

6. Dingin kan lah, bau jer pn da sedap~~~ kalau nak makan trus pon bleh, [macam pic atas tue untuk dimakan keh!] nak tunggu, and then hias ngan icing pon bleh...tue sambung cite kat bawah nie plak.

Icing Cupcake

Bahan-bahan icing

*Butter 1/3 buku jer. or 100gram pon cukup

*Icing Sugar dalam 1 atau 1 1/2 gelas

*Esen vanilla barang setitik dua

1. Butter tu kasi sejuk kt luar fridge sampai boleh dipenyek2 ngan sudu/spatula

2. Masukkan icing sugar sikit demi sedikit sampai abes. Rasa, kalau cukup, stop adding sugar, if not, tambah lah sampai yang korang rasa sedap, tak mau manis2 sangat, Diabetes mak pak nanti, hehe. Kacau lah sampai die jadi likat.

3. Da dapat somethink yang likat nie. Divide lagi ke mangkuk-mangkuk cam tadi yang masa wat cake tue, ikut brape kaler korang nak utk icing itu. then wat lah keje-keje pendidikan seni lagi sekali disitu. da siap? tepek lah kt cuppy korg td tue, leh jer nk tambah cadbury ke, tabur serbuk milo ke, patahkan kit kat tancap kt cuppy tue ke..ikut selera perot korg~

4. Mari makan!!!

"macam kanak-kanak tadika"

Relationship?

Semua org pasti ada hubungan ngan sesape pon kn? mana ada orang yang tinggal sorang jer kat dunia nie..ish, tak mungkin,tak mungkin...Dalam berhubungan mesti lah ada masalah, badai, ombak sume pun ade...tsunami, kadang-kadang sampai el nino. The problem is: how we face it?

Some people can just let it go by using this principe: Forgive and Forget. But not everyone can do that, right? one of them is me. [berkata dengan penuh keyakinan] Yer, saya pendendam orang nya. Sounds ganas lah pulak...tapi bukan dendam sampai nak pegi parang ke bomoh ke cam sebagian orang, the definition of dendam for me is i cant let go of the memory about something that broke my heart. Even the things have been pass away for more than 5 years [maybe], those thing will remain in my head. Why? because i knew i can forgive but if i totally forget about it, i will hurt more than enough...i tought the thing will never happen again but now it happen again...and to avoid it from happening lg, istilah Indonesia: Putuskan lingkaran setan itu...Now, the circle is she-he-problem...if there is no she and he, there will be no problem, simple arithmetic okay.

i'm not an easy-going person, i do admit this, only the person who really close to me know this, otherwise, might think i'm a happy go lucky person, suke hu-ha2, relaks...but deep inside, not really lah, depan kawan2, who have to pretend macho! <--ni my prinsip dr kecik! haha...Me mmg suka lari dari masalah, rarely i tend to settle the problem, i rather chose running away [is this a option?] hahaha..but by running away, i can think very well, tak dikawal oleh amarah syaitan...then br leh buat keputusan yang realistik <--proses ini sangat lah lama...adeh~

untuk apa yang happening dulu dan sekarang, i dont have any option da, by making the 2nd party hurt, i dont think he can barely take this again and again. Maybe have to the no-no thingy yang memang tak mahu dari dulu. Mencintai tidak semestinya memiliki.

Homesickness Disease!

Floating perfectly quietly on surface of my bed, i start thinking about my hometown and my family. I miss them a tons esp my mom, dad, granny n my grandpa.Everyone is crossing over my mind one by one like a chipsmore campaign; "Now You See, Now You Dont". Life is not about 1 person, it is a correlation between 2 and ++ hearts. Even sometime these people keep making you annoyed but they are your environment, your sun, your shaddy cloud, your pouring rain and your guiding angel. God,friends and family similar to each beat of my cardiac. Their love were full like the volumes of blood in a ventricle, then go with the flow to each single part of my body. I love them damn much!

Once i had a fight with my mom just because a simple thing, about trust. Trust itself as a nouns means reliance on an integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc of a person or thing; confidence. I found myself having sense when the person i do love n close enough cheating and this kinda feeling sometimes give me a really bad thinking (arabic say; Su' Zhon) to that person and its hurt me enough. I'm not saying that i never lie, yes, i do lie for good and bad also, but i dont lie about something related to a heart. But for my mom, she doesnt believe this kinda sense and she do believe the one she loves very well. I do bad-mouthing about this to my granny and my granny say even my mom act like a tiger, she has a very good heart, she loves n trust us very well even when we kept secret from her (eg. 1.sorok result exam, 2.sorok jatuh longkang n luka, 3.sorok beli gula2, 4.cilok duit die bwh karpet). Before the secret pops up, she will keep asking bout it, try to make us talk about that particular issue till we reveal the truth. Yeah, the true is out there mummy, haha...and when she notice that we are telling lie, there comes a big giant hanger and a sarcastic pinch on our butt(owh...thats killing me!). i love my mum very well either when she being a hulk hogan, or when she babbling for at least 4 hour, or even when she ask me to do loads of housework (which 90% i ignored).

[my mommy, my sweetheart]

Me, ma self, and ai...

"Banyak dowh notes kali nie"
"Gle bapak slide die, da ar hitam, xpaham lak tuh..sengal! bek xyah bg modul"
"xpe2..ckit jer g ni, highlite jer sume..hahaha, janji da penah bc"

Those quotes are so familiar in my place. Yes, i am a student, a fourth year medical student in a country with a huge amount of populations called Jakarta. We were here not just because of the government, but we are here to fulfill our responsibility to learn medics and become a Doctor. Life is not simple and sometimes its really heartbreaking esp when u are facing an unstopable problems daily. Even a nightstand weekend cant stop u from thinking about it and thats we called a cycle of a human.

Learning medical in this kind of "keep on growing" country is not very difficult and worse as people thought. There are pro n cons when u're living in others places, even when we say that we loved 4 seasons country (which Jakarta also have 4 seasons; Hujan, Panas, Berdebu, and Suam2 kuku). Like my granny, my mom, and my teachers says "Hujan batu di negeri orang, hujan emas di negeri sendiri, kompem2 lah lebih baik kt negeri sendiri, ye idak?" and yet, i agree with it. Me myself, never can overcome my homesick (i really mean it), i will cry all over the night till dawn, imaging that i am lying on my comfy bed back at home and hearing my mom babbling, what a beautiful dream...hahaha

People perception towards Jakarta always variety from a shopping heaven to a place for honeymoon (which is not very suitable because women will start thinking about beggies, heels, etc). But for me as a student, Jakarta is a good place nor a nice place to live at because of it condition itself. I love being in a small town like i had before (Dungun and Kuala Pilah) such a warm cozzy place, located in a high hills (hills lar sgt,haha). But that kinda place suits me well even theres among of my friend called it "Kampung" but this "Kampung" thought me lots of lesson about life. How to communicate with people like they are well known person, how to make friends with people who talk differ from u before, and most of all, how u learn to adapt with people culture (that why Allah create us with a lot of race, it is a gift for us to meet people with thousand of variety culture, food, and so on but still we are the same, His creations)


I think i'm gonna stop babbling here. The rain is falling faster, blewing my mind away, and making me having a thought to take a nap for awhile. I'll continue my journey next time while still not busy with bucks of notes and homeworks. Sorry for my writing if its look weird, I'm not very good in English, but i'm trying my best to defeat my 'try everything in english'phobia inside me. Well, see ya again!